4:01:00 AM
As of right now, ikkoku.net is on hiatus until further notice. There will be, however, small updates in the future here and there. Check the network's updates to see what's new, and read this blog to be kept updated of recent news & activities of myself and the network. I won't be able to finish my sites since the layouts (which is the most important part) haven't been done yet. They require an extra amount of free time, concentration, and inspiration for each single one. And I need at least 5 layouts and 15 sublayouts, above all -_- I won't get to anywhere yet with this crazy schedule of mine *sighs* I'm going to miss working on my sites ;_;

I apologize for the lack of content and updates on my sites. I know I shouldn't have opened the collective while I didn't have anything to offer. But it was too late, I was too excited to having a domain... well, you know ^^; But I promise I will work hard for the Kyoko Hikawa site (although no one might be interested in it) so that I can launch it as late as August 2001. Still a long time, I know. But with my schedule (both this semester and summer session) and the hassle of having to move to California, it's very quick indeed. My life is going to be hell from now on. It has been for 3 weeks.... I hope I can survive.

Thank you all for being such wonderful friends, readers to this blog, and visitors to my site. And thank you for all the support and concern during the past year. I'm sorry I cannot live up to your expectations. I'm such a lazy person ._. And a big procrastinator, too. Gomen nasai ;_;

2:54:00 AM
What's the matter with the unbelievably slow updating of the posts? -_-

On a funnier note, getting over an ex-love is the newest search engine query. Mmm.. I haven't even succeeded on doing that either. I guess a lot of people are still in trouble of getting over their ex-love, eh? =P

2:22:00 AM
Whoops O_O;;
The "post & publish" was verrrryyy slow on the last post, so I had to press it 4 times. And got 4 long, identical entries as a result >_<; My apology to anyone who happened to see the mess.

I just reached home from 2 hours studying and another 2 hours watching Deuce Bigalow Male Gigolo XD I know I should have done my stuff, but the movie was too interesting to pass by. I don't have movie channels at home, it's too expensive and I rarely watch TV anyway. What is quite surprising is, I can't resist TV temptations anywhere but home. So if I go to a friend's place with a digital cable and a lot of movie channels at home, I can't resist not to see the programs whenever the TV is on ^^;

But now I have to continue running my errands. Uh, let's see... for tomorrow: 1 quiz, 1 reading assignment (40 pages), grading 100 homeworks. And Thursday is hell day. Two quizzes, 3 homeworks, a lot of readings for Thursday. NOOOOO!!! -_- -_- -_-

9:49:00 PM
The day is not over yet... still have to do Math homework -_- I'm going to give up some time soon ;_;

Joey, 21 years old is not very exciting, ne? I wasn't excited either when I turned 21. I threw a small party though, at poolside ^^ I don't know why I'm fond of pools. When I turned 17, I also had a party (somewhat big one) at poolside of a hotel. But I wasn't excited on my 21st birthday... I was a bit bored, actually =P Anyhow, thanks for the compliment ^^ The quote is from a poem titled "Memories Of You" by Mia Lynn Watson. And quite honestly, I didn't remember where I got the poem from. I always search for a poem (or quote) to accompany the theme of my layout. I happened to save the poem on my computer long time ago. Here's the complete poem:

Memories of You
by Mia Lynn Watson

Someday as I sit alone with my thoughts,
You'll pass through my memory on a cool summer's breeze.
And I'll remember your smile -
The smile that would brighten my day
And bring sunshine into my life.

I'll remember all the good times,
And if the bad times try to break through,
I'll push them out into the cold winter's snow
To be forgotten as time passes.

For I only want to remember the good times -
When your heart and soul were bursting with a newfound joy of life.
A child, in many ways, yet so much a man,
That all who knew you loved you - and all you knew you loved.

Giving of yourself to those who needed -
Your love to those who were lonely,
Your heart to those who ached.

And as the memory drifts on into the realms of my mind
I'll smile
Knowing it will come again -
For how could I forget anything so beautiful.

Alexa, thanks for the compliment as well =D I'm fond of romantic, serene, nostalgic, and melancholic theme for my blog layout.. mostly to fit the title "Reminiscence". Therefore, most of the time I try to use that kind of themes ^^;
Oh, Joey, surely you must have known Alexa's wild mood swings, don't you? But I haven't really witnessed such wild mood swings... until yesterday when I read Alexa's blog O_O;;; Scaaaary, Alexa! XD

Err, Flipper... where you are located, how much difference is it from GMT? Mine is GMT -5 (Eastern time of US & Canada). I want to calculate how much difference is it between my place & yours. I will have to go to a friend's place now... doing math homeworks.. then I'll be back. Say around 12 AM I'll be here. I think it will be around 3 pm at your place. I hope you're still there by then ._.

And now... I need to go *is not happy at all -_-* Ja ne!

11:29:00 PM
music of the mind : julie london - desafinado (slightly out of tune)
I'm back... from superbowl party at a friend's house. Yes *nods* a superbowl party >_< Well actually, I didn't really watch the game. I was reading through my book for tomorrow's quiz while the boys were shouting and cheering all the time. The only other girl also tried to write a paper.. and failed nicely, I think ^^; The situation was just not right for studying. Why did I come in the first place, you ask? Because there was free pizza =D And I was very hungry for not having eaten anything the whole day, not until the pizza came at 7 pm -_- And I didn't have anything to eat at home... and I was too lazy to cook. See the pattern? All leads to the ultimate problem of mine: laziness XD

I glanced several times to the TV though. And I slept for about 15 minutes, too. I watched the half-time after that, which featured 'N Sync, Aerosmith, Britney Spears, Mary J. Blige and Nelly. They sang together. Quite cool, although I don't usually like them. Of course, the boys growled when Britney Spears came up *_* Sheesh, those boys... But I must admit, the only time that the Giants scored was cool, though. Running from one side of the field to the other side and touched down. Too bad (or not? ^_~) Ravens avenged right after that, with exactly the same way - running from one end to the other and touched down. But anyhow.... ^^; I sound like a guy, now.

Speaking about hair, Joey and Isabela, I'm glad I don't have to have long hair. I never had long hair anymore after 3rd grade, because my hair was so thin back then I had to keep it short ~ above shoulder-length. It became a habit until now. I never grow my hair below shoulder anymore, mostly because my face is oval and long hair would look bad. I would look old and not fresh. And my face would look thinner and longer. So I keep my hair chin-length for now. Even some people said chin-length is still too long for me o_O

Yes, Pattie, message me anytime =D If there's no answer, that means I'm not in front of the computer though. Oh btw, an away mode means online for me *hints* ^^ Anything but online mode. I don't like online mode, although it's better than invisible.
Really, Mary? That sucks -_- When do you think you'll change providers?

music of the mind : astrud gilberto & george michael - desafinado

3:16:00 PM
No, Flipper, I'm not going to be mad, don't worry ^^ I'm always in N/A, firstly because my computer is online all the time (cable connection) and secondly because I have so many people in my contact list. If I go online, I will have to be really free to chat and have nothing else to do at the moment. Because people will message me all the time, you know, and I will be busy replying to their messages. N/A is a better alternative than invisible, in my opinion. Cause people can still see me and send an urgent message if they want to. But above all, message me anytime. If I'm there, I'll reply.. don't worry ^^ Alexa and I used to message each other even if we were offline or invisible or N/A. In that case, I take it you're always in invisible mode since I never see you at all. Perhaps put me in your visible list? ^^ So that I can message you whenever I see you?

Mary, where are you? :_: I never see you either *sobs* I really really want to talk to you. Is your ICQ alright? Or shall I use AIM to talk to you? And Yoshe, too :_: I never see you on AIM anymore. The only time I saw you was last night, but you signed out almost instantly after you went online.

Ne, Joey, when is your 21st birthday? Speaking about birthday, I'm going to be 22 this July.. I feel old already >_<; And guess whose birthday is coming up in 9 days? *pokes pokes* =D

*got the link from Ruby* Planet-telex is so cute! Mmm.. I just realized that we never talked to each other even though we have each other's icq on our contact lists, ne? ^^;; Expect a message soon :D And Shampoo, too! Haven't talked to you in quite a while.. hope I catch you online soon.

Whoops, almost forgot. Happy belated birthday, Brian! Sorry I haven't been reading people's blogs that much lately.
Eeep.. I gotta run. Ja ne ~

5:55:00 AM
As you can see... finally a new layout ^^
Yes, Yui one more time. I love her, that's why. More than Miyu. One task is done *takes a deep breath* There are still a lot to be done...

Last night was the first time I ever ate in a restaurant with so many Indonesian people. 17 people in one big table :D But it was fun, although there were only 4 girls including myself -_- Indonesian girls in Penn State are decreasing. When I and Kara graduate this August, there will only be 2 girls left, and 1 is inactive on the organization. Ha! XD

Sleep or eat? Sleep? Or eat? >_< This is the hardest choice. I'm both very sleepy and hungry. I wish we could eat while sleeping ^^; But since gastro intestinal reflux is at risk, I'd better fulfill my stomach's wish. Now.

12:36:00 AM
music of the mind : george michael - kissing a fool
Wondering how stuff works? ^^

Look at the new Sony slimtop computer, PCV-LX900 *drools* Who wouldn't want that wonderful technology & design in one? *_* I really want that slimtop when I'm married and have my own house in the future *yes, start dreaming, Elyse* =P
Hmm.. I wonder if I can ask my parents for this digital camera for my birthday? ^^; But perhaps the lens is too big, and thus not very portable. I think this one is nicer, and very compact indeed.

Flipper, how come I never see you on ICQ? I really want to talk to you :_: Message me whenever you're online, kay? Even though I'm in N/A mode most of the time, I'm usually there.

11:36:00 PM
Happy 50th birthday to my dear mother (it's already Jan 27th in Indonesia).

music of the mind : rare silk - new york afternoon
Ahhhh.. *takes a deep breath* Weekend! Finally I can breathe =D
Sheesh, I didn't realize I would be this busy. Not in my life did I think of the consequences -_- While other people are enjoying their last semester with easy classes and a lot of spare time, I have to cram through my days until July *sobs* No fair :_:
And the Math class that I'm taking is a total mistake! It's sooo hard, especially since I'm not in engineering or science major. It's Calculus 3, deals with multiple integrals, vectors and analytic geometry in space, multivariable functions and partial derivatives,.... alright I'd better stop =P But you know... those things -_-

Anyhowww.. I'm not going to let it spoil my weekend now! My only 2-day free time... Sunday is going to be hellish, too. So I'm going to enjoy my limited time now ^^ Let's see.. I badly need a layout for this blog, and a layout for the guestbook. I might leave ikkoku.net's layout for another month, since I won't be able to design quickly anyway. My problem is the designing. It takes forever -_- That's why I procrastinate all the time. It's not an easy task, designing one layout.

More search engine query to this blog:
- Jack in the Box Fried Raviolis (err, I don't remember I wrote that post >_<)
- hips getting bigger (that emode test... ^^;)
- amuzing sms messages (I can't believe I wrote with a "z" o_o)

And if you click here, you will see this page with a frame on top O_O

The filename of Katherine's blog reminds me of the wonderful *coughs* test I took last year.... yes, the Rorschach test >_< I want to learn psychology!

I decided to subscribe to ONE magazine. I have the premiere issue and I love the design and content. It's not bad.. $12 for one-year subscription, 6 magazines in all.

I want a kimono so bad... look at this and this. Very pretty, no? This one with chidori obi is also pretty *_* I think I'm going to find an online store that sells kimono and order one (or two) =D

9:55:00 PM
I'm still alive ^^;
Sorry for not blogging lately... I've been incredibly busy -_- I'm taking 19 credits this semester, 8 classes in total. It's actually too much for one semester, since the average that people take is 5 classes. Here is my class schedule this semester (not that you'll care, but... *coughs*.... who knows ^^;):

Monday
12.20 - 1.10 PM : Cams 001

Tuesday
8.00 - 8.50 AM : Stat 480 (lecture)
2.30 - 3.20 PM : Math 231
4.15 - 5.30 PM : Cams 101
6.00 - 7.15 PM : Earth 002

Wednesday
12.20 - 1.10 PM : Cams 001

Thursday
9.05 - 9.55 AM : Stat 480 (computer lab)
2.30 - 3.20 PM : Math 231
4.15 - 5.30 PM : Cams 101
6.00 - 7.15 PM : Earth 002

Friday
12.20 - 1.10 PM : Cams 001
4.40 - 5.30 PM : BB H 046

No meeting
Art 297 B
Art 297 C

Legend
ART : Art
ART 297 B : Interactive Learning and Web Design (3 credits)
ART 297 C : Visual Images on the Web (3 credits)
BB H : Biobehavioural Health
BB H 046 : Introduction to Health Aspects of Human Sexuality (1 credit)
CAMS : Classics And Ancient Mediterranean Studies
CAMS 001 : Greek and Roman Literature (3 credits)
CAMS 101 : The Roman Republic and Empire (3 credits)
EARTH : Earth Sciences
EARTH 002 : Gaia - The Earth System (3 credits)
MATH : Mathematics
MATH 231 : Calculus of Several Variables (2 credits)
STAT : Statistics
STAT 480 : Introduction to Statistical Program Packages (1 credit)

So, you see, I will have to struggle very hard this semester. The maximum number of credits that a student can take during one semester is 19 credits. And I'm taking the maximum limit o_o Why? Because I have to graduate this summer and I'm going to take 9 credits (3 classes) on the first session of summer. I don't want to take any classes on the second session of summer, since I have to pack my stuff to move to California. It will take a long time cause I have sooo much stuff >_<;; Ahh, I can't wait until graduation....

2:47:00 PM
*sighs* I'm still very tired -_-
I haven't been to classes at all *grins* My body still aches, my legs hurt and I easily get tired whenever I walk. I slept properly on Monday night, but the sleeping pattern was kind of messed up last night. My friend, Kara, was coming over yesterday afternoon. We were going to buy textbooks and stuff together on the evening, but she fell asleep around 4.30 pm. And I joined around 6.15 pm ^^; I woke up a couple of times that night (to eat, etc), but basically I slept on and off for a total of 12-13 hours last night ^^;;

I'll try to be online some time tonight, Alexa. I will definitely be online tomorrow morning/afternoon and Friday. I'll see you soon ^^ Oh, btw, you mistyped my blog's address =P

I have to go to Kara's place now. Be back soon...

8:14:00 PM
I... am.... back... *collapses into bed*
I will write tomorrow... no energy left tonight. Total journey: 36 hours o_O

Alexa, I arrived at Frankfurt at 6 am today, so there was no way we could meet. I wanted to call, but I didn't want to be whacked by your family >_<;

*kisses her cable connection before she goes to bed*
Good night everyone!

1:59:00 PM
Indonesia : Jan 13th @ 2.00 AM
*stomps foot* The internet connection is getting on my nerves O_O

Interesting search query that made some people visit this blog:
- Inuyasha porn anime o_O
- cute shy women (and my blog is #1 on the list ^^;)
- sakura icq sink (what is that?)
- free historical romance novels for downloading
- indonesian screen name (hm?)
- Gastro intestinal reflux (hey, people actually searched for this XD)
- singapore airlines wallpaper (I wonder why people would be wanting this)
- porn inuyasha anime (......)
I also notice that a lot of people searched for "Nokia 8260" and "Inuyasha download".

The air in Indonesia is dirty and polluted. I'm having pharyngitis again -_- I get sick much too easily in Indonesia compared to USA despite its freezing weather. My mom said, due to the cold weather, virus & bactery can't live very long. That's why they live happily ever after (....) in humid & tropical country such as Indonesia.

I just found out that "albeit" is really a word ^^; I didn't pay close attention to what it means before.
*gasps* a MOUSE has just run very fast about 3 meters away from where I'm sitting! o_O

On another note, I only have one class on Monday, Wednesday and Friday this semester *dances* =D
By the way, Flipper, don't you have archives for your older entries? I think I missed some of your old blog posts :_:

GRRRRR!!! This connection is making me crazy!! >_< I can't open a lot of sites, while I know for sure they're working well -_- Perhaps it's a sign for me to disconnect and go to sleep..... *is deciding* I'm going to sleep *nods* These mosquitoes are also killing me >_< Moreover, I'm going to swim early in the morning tomorrow (err, today ^^;) and since Saturday is the day before I'm going back to USA, I will go out all day. That means, tomorrow is a long day. I'd better have enough sleep.

1:37:00 PM
Indonesia: Jan 9th @ 1.38 AM
Alexa, I love that text (song lyric?) on your blog's layout. That image was from your old personal site, right? I have loved the text ever since I saw it on your personal site. And when the day arrives, I'll become the sky and I'll become the sea. And the sea will come to kiss me, for I am going home. That sounds so romantic ^^ Where did it come from?

Have you read the Marmalade Boy manga, Alexa? I like the manga more than the anime. There are a couple of story differences between the manga & the anime. To sum it up, the story of the manga is less complicated and more serious. But both are equally wonderful.

1:16:00 PM
Indonesia : Jan 9th @ 1.16 AM
My classes schedule is messed up *sobs* I have been calling USA to take care of them, but I will have to take the classes on summer instead -_- I'm going to take this webdesign course and this visual images course for my elective requirements. It's going to be an easy A =D The most wonderful part is: there won't be any meetings, everything (syllabus, assignments) is done via the class website. Wonderful, isn't it? ^^ So out of 7 classes this semester, I only have to meet for the 5 classes. And now I have to search for a science class -_- I hate science class so much.. I still have 1 more that's required to take *gah*

Yesterday I met my ex-boyfriend's junior high school friends for dinner. He has 2 different kind of friends: old friends from his junior high school (most of them went to Indonesian universities) and his college friends from USA (mostly studied in Boston). I hadn't met his old friends at all, except for his bestfriend (who is none other than my friend's cousin *getting confused? =P*). They were curious to see me, so they asked me to meet them. Well, it was alright... but during the time I was there, my mind was sort of wandering elsewhere. So quite often my face went blank and one of the girls asked me if I had a problem. Hell no, I didn't think of anything at all. But it has always been the case with me: my emotion and thought are always shown very clearly on my face. One can guess quite easily as to what my feeling is at the moment. The girl asked several times, to my surprise, because I really didn't think of anything particular nor did I have any problem at all.

On my way back home, I thought about it... Why my mind went blank like that, as if an important problem occupied my mind. At last I knew the answer: I still haven't finished forgiving my ex-boyfriend.. *sighs* I'm bored already of that thought, really. But I need to get it off my mind very soon. I admit I'm still not over him 100% yet. It has been... what, 2 years already? -_- Guess I have to continue forgiving him each and everyday. Perhaps yesterday was a test, to see whether I could face his close friends without thinking about him. And I understand now.. even though I'm separated with him, I haven't seen him since June 2000, and we rarely contact each other anymore, the memories are still there and I still haven't gone through the forgiveness. See how long it takes to forgive one sole human (or one sole love, to be exact)? ._. I'm getting tired already... I want a new love! :_:

There.. *sighs* Another depressed entry of mine. But hey, I haven't had a depressed entry for a long time, ne? ^_~ Time for one now *laughs*

So, Alexa? Has the package come yet? :_: I feel sure this time that the post office must have lost it -_- I have to claim it as soon as I'm back next week.

Mary, are you back yet? Okaeri nasai! Hope to see you soon ^^
My condolences for your parent's godmother, Flipper. Speaking about funeral, I can't see myself crying in a funeral.. I think I haven't cried at any funerals (including my grandpa from dad's side). So far the people who passed away weren't close to me, so that might explains the reason why I couldn't cry. Aside from the fact that I'm somewhat "cold", not being able to express my emotions in front of people (except for getting angry and bad mood *laughs*). Eh, in any case, I -don't- want to attend any funerals in the near future ._.

1:10:00 PM
Indonesia : Jan 7th @ 1.10 AM
Ah, Indonesia (or Jakarta, to be exact) is so small.... but I don't really believe that "it's a small world after all". No, the world is very big indeed *.... contradictions, anyone? ^^;*
Here goes the story... My mom has been out of town until tomorrow, and there was a wedding reception this evening. My dad's friend's daughter was getting married, and he asked me to accompany him. When my dad mentioned his friend's last name, I was really surprised... because the bride is someone I know of (not exactly my friend though, because I knew her from my ex-boyfriend and we never kept in touch). But a year ago, on my flight back to USA from Indonesia, I sit next to her (Nana is her name) purely by coincidence and we chatted. She told me she was going to get married on Jan 6, 2001.. but I didn't remember until my dad asked me a few days ago. So I went to the wedding reception and she still remembered me =D How an extraordinary coincidence ^_^

That's not the end yet. Turned out that a lot of people I know (from IRC, ICQ, or other friends) that I had or hadn't met before were there. Since Nana had her undergraduate study in Boston, I saw a lot of Boston people (whom I knew from my ex-boyfriend, of course, cause he was one of them). In addition, the groom's brother studied at Purdue University... therefore I also met some Purdue people I know of. It's quite funny, in one occasion I was able to meet people that I never saw for years, or people that I hadn't met for years ^^ So while my dad was busy with his friends and people he knew, I was busy greeting people I knew XD I was very tired though, walking and standing for almost 2 hours and I was wearing high heel shoes, above all -_- I almost couldn't walk on my way out >_<; But I was happy, because I saw a very handsome guy ^_~ (whom I've known for years... just know though, not friends). Absolutely no chance for me though... *deep sigh* Don't ask me why ._.

5:50:00 AM
Indonesia : Jan 5th @ 5.30 PM
Nya.. sorry long time no post ^^; My room phone connection hasn't been working since 3 days ago due to thunderstorm -_- So I have to drag my laptop outside to connect, which is quite a hassle. That's why I've disappeared lately. On one hand, I miss my dear cable connection back in USA.. but on the other hand, I still want to stay here longer. I'm not satisfied yet (and never would've been even if I had had a 3-month holiday ^^;).

Oh my goodness.... I simply forgot, stupid me *whacks self repeatedly*
Congratulations, Alexa, for the opening of Project Kamikaze & Royal Slumber! I'm so sorry I forgot >_< Come online now! I miss talking to you :_:
And Yoshe! I haven't seen you in ages :_:

New -cute- layout at cherrycoma.net and suzaku.nu ^^ And this is so funny, Shampoo *laughs* I would never have that creativity =P

I bought two graphic design books yesterday :D Love the design so much. And I got Hana Yori Dango artbook, too ^^ Although the art is mediocre, I still love the series. All in all, Kinokuniya is wonderful, but very expensive (.....)

I'm going back to USA next week, on the 14th.... back to school (1 week late =P), no more vacation to Indonesia (not until next year, I suppose -_-), have to search for a job.... arghhh -_- How boring & uninteresting. That means I will not have much free time to do my hobbies (including webpage). I will have to pack my stuff (which is unbelievably a lot >_<) and have the apartment empty and ready to move by July. Sheesh, that's a lot of task -_-

11:52:00 AM
Indonesia : Jan 1st, 2001 @ 11.52 PM
Happy New Year 2001 =D
I was very tired and a bit lazy to connect to the net, so I didn't come online until now ^^;

For the first time since fall semester started, I exercised =P I played tennis & went swimming yesterday. Those made me totally worn out and sleepy, but I couldn't sleep since I had to go to a party afterwards & attend a new year's gathering later at night. We went home around 3 am this early morning... and I collapsed nicely into my warm & fuzzy bed ^_~ And didn't wake up until 1 pm *laughs*

What did everyone do on new year's eve? I spent new year's eve with my closest family, which was really warm & wonderful. It was very simple... but very meaningful. At least for me, since I couldn't taste such a wonderful experience often... being that I'm far away from family & friends most of the time.

Aside from that, my right arm is hurt due to tennis >_< Up from the right side of the neck, on to the right shoulder and the whole arm, down to the hand. I need to have a massage tomorrow. And now sleep is what I need, especially since I have to wake up very early to go swimming *sighs* I'm going to be tired again.... but after that: massage! :D

Oh, happy 1st birthday to suzaku.nu, hikaru.net and seventh-moon.net =D Thanks for the info, Flipper ^^

Lastly, I think I'm not going to put the new year layout I've prepared... I'm simply too lazy for that right now. Perhaps later... we'll see.