12:59:00 AM
-----------» music of the mind : dave grusin - on golden pond
I've lost 4 of my favourite CDs. I lent them to my ex-boyfriend & suddenly they were nowhere to be found. He's tried looking for them for almost a year now (not trying hard, I would say -_-) and I really miss the songs by now so I'm downloading every songs from the 3 smooth jazz instrumental CDs. The other one is an anime CD and it's not as important as the other 3: David Benoit (best collection), Dave Grusin (best collection) and Very Best of Smooth Jazz Guitar. And yes, although these songs always remind me of either Boston or DC (where my ex-boyfriend was ._.), I always love them to heart. In fact, I called him today & let him know that I was listening to these songs & how it reminded me of him. Well, we're still good friends.. and yes, sometimes I miss him. It's perfectly human of me to still miss him, ne? Talking to him doesn't really satisfy my heart though... it 's more like I miss our times together.. which of course can't be brought back ._. Ah, the hardest thing in life (maybe not ^^;) is to keep a memory still a memory, nothing more. Because it won't come back. I'm still thinking how I can get through it...

-----------» music of the mind : dave grusin - river song
On to a more cheerful note *hums along with the song*
I'm going home.... in two months & a half :D I can't wait! This is going to be my last chance of going back to Indonesia. I won't be able to do it again at least in the next 2 years cause I'm graduating & moving to California afterwards. It's kind of complicated to explain, but international students can't go in & out of USA as easily. We need either an I-20 (to get the visa) or H-1 (a working visa that's sponsored by the company). I will be able to stay in the USA for a year without neither of them using an OPT (Optional Practical Training), but I can't go out of USA at all during the year. If I go out, I can't come back again *_* Well, my parents are coming August next year for my graduation so I won't be as lonely, but I can't see other people I want to meet in Indonesia.

-----------» music of the mind : dave grusin - st. elsewhere
I'm in the mood for happy smooth jazz songs :D
04 is a wonderful place. I find a lot of great bitmap fonts there. I fell in love with the font for the menu of Thalia's blog, so I emailed her and she told me that site.

Anyhow, as a follow up of the fight between my friends (a guy & a girl who shall remain nameless) last Friday, my roomie has been terrored by the girl (who is rather close to her because the girl who got in the fight is my roomie's boyfriend's older sister) since yesterday. I feel really bad for my roomie to have been dragged this far.... all because of that stupid fight which wasn't even her fault. Gah -_- And my roomie is the nice & kind type, she can control her emotion very well. If I were her, I would've ignored the girl & thrown the so-called friendship away. What kind of friendship is that, to begin with? The girl kept asking & asking "Why didn't you stand up for me while we fought & tell the guy that he was wrong & back me up? What does the friendship we've had mean to you?"
To start with, that fight was awful & I was afraid they would've hit each other (and a girl is still a girl no matter how dare she might be) so I & my roomie tried to separate them away. How could we think of something to say other than "Oh, please stop! Come on, don't fight. Come here, please" to the guy especially (since he was the one who started the fight) and tried to drag the guy away from the girl? I did that many times, and each time the guy slapped my hand away. How could I think of anything else to do? It was a fight, not an argument. We couldn't think of anything other than trying to stop it cause we were afraid ourselves. I don't understand those people.

Now about the so-called friendship the girl was always imposing on my roomie. What kind of friend is she calling my roomie a "bitch" behind her back & didn't say sorry, instead explaining to her why she called her a bitch that time. What the hell?? *rolls eyes* For your information, this girl is disliked by the entire Indonesian students in my uni due to her complicated & bad manners. So it was just a pressure for us to act nice to her. Most of the time, I don't take her too seriously, I just ignore her altogether. For some reasons, she's rather afraid of me (maybe because I never listen to her rambles and I always seem don't care) that she never gets angry at me and rarely argues with me. Well, good. Don't bother me and leave me alone O_O
Mmmh, I should stop now. I still have a homework to do for tomorrow *sighs*

1:42:00 AM
-----------» music of the mind : wish anime soundtrack - theme
I'm very unproductive today *_* Basically I've done nothing.. and don't have the urge to do anything at all.... I went to bed at 8.30 am this morning (yes, very very late >_<), woke up at 4 pm, being lazy, talked to Alexa and eating like a pig at the same time (because I haven't eaten for 12 hours), talked to my roomie, did laundry (took me 4 hours back & forth cause I haven't done laundry in such a long time ^^;;), and here I am now, thinking of what to do... In fact, I have a homework due tomorrow & it uses a software called GAMS (General Algebraic Modeling System). However, I don't have that in my computer. The only computer labs that have GAMS are Beam & BAB II at the far north of campus. It's damn cold outside & I don't want to go in the middle of the night, so I'm downloading the file right now. Good thing I can find the free demo online. The size is big though >_< Another important thing to do is a Japanese vocab quiz... but I don't have to worry that much for that one. It's not very hard. I can just skim through it quickly tomorrow.

-----------» music of the mind : david benoit - kei's song
This song.... reminds me of my wonderful time in Boston *_* I love this song to heart... and yes, it always reminds me of my late boyfriend :_: I don't know whether it's good or bad... Oh well *shoo the thought away from her mind* I really should do the homework.. it's getting very late -_-

4:11:00 AM
How come the time in this blog is not updated yet? *_*

Uh wait, it's updated now :D
Anyhow, I want to download some mp3s but I'm still talking to Yoshe right now so I have to wait to change ISP. I can't download from napster using my campus connection. They've banned napster so I have to connect using free internet access... how annoying. I need cable connection badly -_-

I love the car in Felicia's new layout. How cute *_*

2:32:00 AM
But, Pattie, the ticket to LA is around $600 now.. I'm broke >_< Hey, you're right about LA having J-town :D I can do some shopping there *laughs* We'll see about that ^^;

Arghhh.. someone has been knocking very loudly (more like hitting to me) at a neighboor's door (maybe trying to get in by waking up the owner) for the last 15 minutes o_O It's 2 am, I can't stand the noise anymore *puts her hands over her ears*

By the way, the time in this post is not right. It should have been 2.32 am. Daylight saving time ends today, so the clock moves back an hour, meaning I get 1 more hour to sleep. Yay :D

1:29:00 AM
*dances & sings in joy*
I'm so happy XD My computer is as good as new, except the hard disk space is decreasing a lot *_* I've customized the desktop view more thoroughly than before & it's looking awfully nice. Yes, I love this wallpaper that Alexa made *_* It's lovely & serene.

I & my roomie (and 2 more friends) were going to go swimming on Friday night but we were kinda late when we arrived at the pool. Basically we only had 10 minutes to swim so we decided it wasn't worth at all and we went home instead after picking one other friend up. Then came trouble....
My friends (a guy & a girl) got in a fight afterwards in my apartment from a heated argument. I and my roommate felt so tense, we didn't know what else to do other than trying separate them and calm everyone down. But both were so hot-tempered I was afraid they would've hit each other... thank God they didn't O_O;; It was a really bad & uneasy situation watching people (especially my friends) fight in front of me. I felt so bad for my roomie cause she got dragged deeper into the problem cause she's kinda close to the girl... -_- I was in a neutral side so I didn't get involved much... but I felt really bad... ._.
Knowing that, I should've stayed home instead of going to the swimming pool (knowing that we were gonna be late anyway) & talked to Alexa, Yoshe & Lanma instead. I was chatting with them before I had to go cause I promised my roomie I would go with her if she decided to go. It ended up like that ._.

.....I really feel bad & uneasy when my friends fight over each other. I don't like seeing them hurt each other although I may only be indirectly involved or not really involved at all. The end result sometimes is even worse. With them fighting, they usually drag other innocent people deeper to the problem, so that everyone will feel bad about that. And apology is not enough. One can't just put a healband (i.e. bandaid) over the pain, right? They shouldn't have done what they did cause once they're hurt, they're hurt. They can't take it back... I'm in way a lot of situations like that lately, i.e. being in the middle. It's making me tired and sad ._.

Anyhow, I and other 6 people including my roomie & her boyfriend went to Denny's afterwards for supper. Since this weekend is Halloween weekend (well I know Halloween is next Tuesday, but people are having costume parties & such), the guys told scary stories while we were eating. I'm usually not really afraid of hearing scary stories but last night the atmosphere was ghastly... so the stories kind of affected me ^^;; Most of the people were scared, even the guys, too =P So we went home & talked & tried to calm everyone down... so that we could sleep well that night. Hehe, it's kind of silly, I know ^^;;;

2:13:00 AM
Phew.. Finally... it's finished *_* I've reinstalled all necessary programs, customized the desktop more thoroughly, cleaned unnecessary files & programs... Now that everything's fixed, I'm gonna be really mad if by any chance IE doesn't work again later on O_O Maybe I should just sell this comp back, or return it while it's still under the warranty. It's not my fault the programs aren't synchronized -_-

-----------» music of the mind : card captor sakura - yoru no uta (christmas version / class choir)
Upon reading some emails from CML about the December's ASUKA's turnout story of X, I really want to get ahold of my ASUKA asap. I wonder why I haven't received it until now while other people seem to have gotten it. Need to check with Sasuga tomorrow *makes notes* I'm not a faithful fan of X, I've only read the first 5 tankoubons so far & haven't really been following the story much afterwards, but I can't deny that I'm a bit curious of the story now.

Do you think it's better to go to New York or LA for Thanksgiving? I'm confused O_O The ticket to LA is around $650 if I buy now, but I'm gonna stay at a friend's place so accommodation is free. For NY, I'm gonna go by bus so the ticket is around $86 (all tickets are roundtrip) but I have to stay at a hotel *_* If I go to LA, I'm going by myself, and if I go to NY, I'm going with my roommate & probably some more people, so we can split the hotel rates. I can't decide *sighs*

On a lighter note, I've seen & heard your voice acting, Kate! I could never act, not even voice acting. I'm too stiff for that >_< I'll give you feedbacks when we get to talk...

I've been downloading a lot of mp3s lately, thanks to Suteki Tenshi no Uta and Jen's All About Anime. I really need to restart my computer now.. It's acting weird again O_O

11:39:00 PM
-_-
*is pissed off & tired*
Because of this stupid IE didn't work since yesterday, I had to reinstall Windows 98 -_- And therefore I have to reinstall ALL programs I've had from the start again -_- See, my computer is giving me nothing but headache. I had to suffer using Netscape last night (and therefore couldn't open several sites, including blogger.com), tried to figure out the problem & do everything I could... since reinstalling Windows 98 was the last thing I wanted to do, although it didn't necessarily format the harddisk. I still have all my files with me, thank goodness. But still ~_~ how many more hours I have to spend installing everything, making sure the programs work correctly, especially the damn IE *curses* I don't like Netscape because of its limited features, but I don't like IE & Microsoft in general, either. It's too complicated. I can't install only IE 5, I have to reinstall the whole damn Windows 98. What kind of program requires you to go through that complicated step?? Gah -_-

5:09:00 PM
*is hearing Alexa's voice saying the title of Weiß Kreuz*
Ne, Alexa, your voice is not very different than what I've had in mind :D
I really want to go shopping.. I haven't bought any clothes for 6 months (aren't I wonderful? =P), except in Indonesia this past summer. That's amazing though... I almost can't stand not to buy anything at least once every season. Mmm.. I will definitely go shopping on Thanksgiving break. And my friend plans to go to King of Prussia, PA, this weekend. There are lots of outlets and shopping centers there *is excited* I hope we'll go for sure...

1:17:00 PM
*congratulates herself and sings*
I finally reach my goal! I slept at 1.30 am last night XD That is a big achievement for me, as you might all have known already, because my sleeping pattern had been really bad in the last 2 months (maybe more). I always slept around 5-6 am and woke up right before classes so I had to rush through everything everyday -_- Now I can take my time and relax before classes begin :D Hopefully I can maintain this pattern starting today. You're all my witnesses =P

Kodocha is wonderful. I watched eps 10-24 yesterday (& I think the day before). I was really lazy & tired last night that I ended up not doing my homework & did it just before I wrote this. Well, I think I should get ready to class now.... Macaroni & cheese is yummy =9

4:17:00 AM
-----------» music of the mind : astrud gilberto - the girl in ipanema
Kate has finally gotten her blog up! I checked a couple of times a day since Friday to see whether it had been up yet =P Now I can peek inside her everyday life *lol* I finally got to talk to Alexa for a few hours today *is happy* I haven't talked to her much lately, blame it to the timezones.. yes I hate timezones -_-
I'm feeling fine today, thank goodness. I had a group meeting and I ended up not doing anything because my group mates didn't give me any task to do and I felt really bad for that. I could never ask because I was fully aware of my thick accent while speaking English and I was afraid my group mates wouldn't understand my trying to get my opinion across ^_x I'm too conscious for that, it's not good. I might end up being all shy and afraid to say something (in English =P) in the future. I have to get used to it soon.

-----------» music of the mind : boyzone - shooting star
You know, something amazingly beautiful happened to me. I was in a deep frustrated situation yesterday that I couldn't think of anything except pitying myself and felt so sure that the whole world hated me, which was of course only an exaggeration ^^;; So I let myself dwell on the problem and forget that I must accept myself the way I am and try to love myself because I believe everyone is unique. I'm not saying that my problem was silly or not worth dwelling in for.. God knows how hard it has been for me all of my life....
I and Alexa had a discussion about the "real person" within us and that people were supposed to hate us because of our bad characteristics. Want to know the "real lisette"? *lol* Here goes...

I am sarcastic, cynical, too sensitive sometimes, too cold at other times =P I'm moody, and if I'm in one of my bad moods, I easily get ticked off. I'm easily hurt and I worry a lot. I get paranoid too much, especially from people I'm close to. I worry about what they think of me. I get easily upset if they criticize me, although it's for my own good ^_~ I don't really care about people in general, but I care a lot for my friends and family. I may be too strong or tough for men to handle, somewhat too independent for them. I'm torn: I sometimes have very low confidence, but at other times I'm high above the sky. I have high pride, I never kiss ass (at least I never try to -_-), sometimes I have big ego, sometimes I give in to everyone. I'm fair, considerate, a good listener. But if I don't like someone, I can be very mean & snobbish ^^;; I hate hypocrisy & I always try to be honest to myself & other people. I'm too sentimental (especially over music ._.), sometimes passive. I can't be aggresive... I'm boring, I can't make a joke at all =P Most of the time, I see the bottle half-empty and when I fall, I fall hard. I always miss the time when I was so full of life... :_: I feel the best at those times. But why am I telling all of you strangers out there (except some people who are friends of mine) all those characteristics of mine? Arghhh.. Now everyone knows the "real me" :_: Do you hate me now, knowing that I'm not a good person after all? *tilts head*

Well I have gone beyond the point. What I was trying to say earlier was: something very good happened to me just before. Remember the "forgiveness" rant I wrote 2 weeks ago? Well, someone emailed me.. basically she was having problems herself and my words helped her change her perspective towards her problems and now her situation's getting better. She thanked me for writing those words... :_: I feel loved *sobs* I really do. That was like a sunshine in a cloudy day. I couldn't help smiling until right now.. Being able to help someone in distress is the best thing I've ever felt. You see, it's like a circle... her email struck me that instant. I was reminded of something I wrote myself... yes, I was reminded to forgive... In this situation, forgiving myself for being low & vain, forgiving the people that detest me, forgiving all the past situations that I couldn't quite get over with and am still reminded of how painful it was being disliked. I wonder why I shut my eyes to the word "forgiving" before. I did remember that, but I shoo it away from my mind... I think the deeper pain you get, the longer you want to dwell on it unconsciously. Maybe because it strikes the heart very deep that one can't get it over with quickly. The heart needs longer time to heal and one refuses to hear to the word "forgive" and decides that no one (or nothing) can help one. I've had my shares over & over again... I know I've often thought of my problems to be the biggest of them all & no one could ever help me.

All in all, I really want to thank you, who sent me the email (you know who you are ^_^)... If my words have helped you once, you have also helped me once, too, somewhat in a perfect time because you reminded me of my own words ^_~ We help each other, don't we? *laughs* That's what I like about healthy life... people helping each other. Mmm and yes, I'm not a perfect human being after all. I can write such words while I also forget about it altogether when I'm faced with a problem myself *lmao* Anyhow, thank you for all of you, who have supported me through my cloudy days. I'm sorry I have been really annoying with that *laughs*

"No one seems to think too much of me here and they're glad to tell it to my face. And they're right I'm not supposed to be here, I'm completely out of place. Somehow there has got to be a reason... Evenings as I try to think it through... there's a bolt from the blue...
And I see a shooting star sets apart from all the rest... While the other stars are standing still, he's on a quest. Every night this shooting star darts across the twilight sky, cause he knows he doesn't quite fit in and he's longing to know why....
I feel so much better when it's night time, that's when I can sort of disappear. When the sun has set and it's the right time for pretending I'm not here. Sometimes I just stare up to the heavens, wondering if the answer is inside. That's when I see the light....
Of myself that shooting star on his way to who knows where. He's the one like all the stars, he outshines up there. And that solitary star is an awful lot like me. On an endless search through time and space for a place that won't seem wrong....
If we both hang on for long enough, if we both somehow are strong enough.... We'll find out where we belong....."

5:15:00 PM
I've been enjoying making buttons for my site :D ikkoku.net has 6 new buttons available for linking purposes. I'm kind of tired right now since I only slept for 5 hours (even worse than before, I went to bed at 10 am this morning >_<;;;) so I'm going to relax and read for a while. And Alexa, if you read this, I've been here on AIM since 1.5 hours ago ^^ I may not be in front of the computer while I'm waiting for you, but I'll check for messages every once in a while.

4:42:00 AM
By the way, Brian, you managed to get 100% on Intro to Business... wow :D Congratulations! I never got perfect grade for my business courses =P How come your teacher let you grade your own test? ^^; This is the first time I ever hear of self-graded test. Rather off topic: I love that Hemingway book "The Sun Also Rises". I once took an English class and I had to read that. I never regret it =) And thank you for thinking so about me... those words of yours make me feel much better ^_^

Nice layout on your blog, Mary ^^ And a nice one at yours, too, Yoshe =)

3:36:00 AM
-----------» music of the mind : whitney houston - the greatest love of all
Today was awful... I woke up at 4 pm (went to sleep at 6 am yesterday), posted that long entry below, went to someone's birthday (2 girls from an Indonesian family here), met a lot of people there, chatted, had dinner, went home around 10 pm. I thought meeting people would cheer me up, but no.... my feeling was totally shattered. I didn't talk much at the gathering, tried to wear the best mask I could show, hoping that no one would notice. I was breaking inside, deeper & deeper.. especially when someone played "The Greatest Love of All" on the piano ;_; Yes, that's my ultimate problem... that no one but myself can help. "Learning to love yourself," so said the song. How... ? *_* I sound really vain, don't I? Maybe people would see me as "low" and "vain" for not being able to love myself. I don't care anymore. Anyone can see me whichever they please, it's not gonna be any worse anyway...

I then talked to Billy for 2 hours online... I feel better. Thanks so much for cheering me up, Billy ^_^ Here are some excerpts from our conversation...

Billy: =) I envy you for being who you are at this point... and you shall be proud of yourself... just do what your heart tells you regardless of what people say...
Elyse: ...and what my heart tells me to do always ends up of my being hated by people... beautiful, isn't it? *bitter laughs*
Billy: friends do come and go... true friends stay forever
Elyse: even if I only have 1 friend and the whole world hates me

The rest is an inside joke, so I don't feel that's necessary ^^;;;
Well... people say "Be yourself". I've done that. I never pretend to be one who is not myself, I'm not a fake and I hate hypocrisy. But, being myself ends up of my being hated... ._. I'm confused.... *_* I wish there was an answer right now in front of me, but that's not the way life goes, is it? -_-
Mmm, I'm not going to dwell on it too much.. I'm too tired to even think of it anymore. Hopefully everything will be better after I sleep *sighs* Maybe it's all because of my unstable emotion due to my biggest monthly enemy ^^;;;; I believe I might be depressed, too, if this happened while I wasn't in the monthly cycle, but it should be much less. Ah, never mind... *shoo it away from her mind*

I decided to be *somewhat* diligent and made some buttons for this blog ^^ They're at the very bottom of the menu on the right part. I used my previous layouts for this blog. That way I can be "reminded" of the layouts ^_^ I'm thinking of making a layout archive, too. Maybe tomorrow. I'm mentally tired right now.... nyanya...

"I decided long ago never to walk in anyone's shadow. If I fail, if I succeed, at least I live as I believe. No matter what they take from me, they can't take away my dignity..... Because the greatest love of all is happening to me. I found the greatest love of all inside of me. The greatest love of all is easy to achieve... Learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all... And if by chance that a special place that you've been dreaming of leads to a lonely place.... find your strength in love."

6:34:00 PM
Please just ignore the previous entry O_O;;;; I was just depressed and I wasn't making any sense, I guess.... *points to herself* Yes, this is lisette while she is depressed... too deep & abstract-thinking, and maybe too philosophical? ._.;;;

Vern, I've joined you as of yesterday night -_-;;;;
Yoshe made buttons for her links, including mine :D Thanks so much, Yoshe... I hope it's alright for me to post the button here ^_^x

6:28:00 PM
I don't know what to say.... I'm just tired of myself, tired of people hating me, tired of living my life... Why was I born in the first place? I know this sounds vain, but I really don't see a point to living my life with everyone ends up hating me.... I really can't stand it any longer ;_; I'm not a bad person, I always care a lot for my friends... Yes, maybe because of my sensitiveness (that I could get mood swing a bit easily), maybe because of my opinions... but hey, what's so wrong about being opinionated? Isn't that good? *_* Or maybe because people think that I think of my opinions as the best and I don't listen to theirs, and therefore I always want to win and they get offended? Well, you are all wrong -_- I'm opinionated, and so if I believe my opinion is correct, I would hold on to it. That doesn't mean I never listen to others. Believe me, I *always* listen to other people's opinions and if that makes sense, then I would certainly agree with them. I'm always fair, if not, I always try to be. And I'm a girl, after all. I like to discuss things. I'm not a weak girl who always follows the men. THAT's why mostly are the men who don't like me, because of their ego, because they think they're higher than women, because they don't like to be dominated by women. Is that fair... ? Then women will always be at men's domination... ?? Is that what all those men want from me, that I can't speak out my opinions at all and always agree to theirs and follow them obediently?? What century are we living at? *_*

*sighs*
Maybe that's the basic of human life after all... Men are supposed to be more dominant & women always follow their men. Men like sweet, cheerful, cute, shy women a lot better than mature, strong, tough, opinionated, moody, [fill in the blank with bad behaviours] women. They want to have their women below them, not above them. They don't want to be dominated. They have too much ego than what I can handle, that's for sure. Aren't men & women supposed to be equal human beings? Helping each other, stand for each other, filling each other's minuses with their own pluses, giving & taking.... Maybe the world we live in is not perfect after all. Although there are those rules, people still live like how they live thousands of years ago, in very basic human life : the ego of men vs women.

I can't be the women that most men like, because this is who I am. I might not be interesting, but I don't care anymore. I try my best to be fair, but I don't want to be crushed by men, either. I might not have a man that I like due to my behaviours, but the point in living is not only to get your man, marry, have children, right? I just have one thought in living my own life from this point forward: surviving. I just have to survive (while controlling my behaviours, of course) with my own efforts. They say everything happens for a reason, or maybe for the best... I don't know. I don't see a reason here, except those I've stated above. Is that the best though? Maybe, for some people. I believe not, for many people who are like me. No matter what, I just try to see the bottle half-full, which is very hard... People tend to see the bottle half-empty first. Maybe with this experience (and I've had this kind of experience throughout my whole life, but I can't say I'm used to it. Will you not care if people hate you? ._.), I will be stronger to live my own life. I have more will to survive and face the real world. Yes... maybe..... *takes a deep breath & her mind is wandering* But still..... it hurts ;_; ;_; ;_;

11:19:00 PM
-----------» music of the mind : jacky cheung & regine velasquez - in love with you
*phew* I finally issued the new layout of ikkoku.net ^_^ Actually the main page was done 3 weeks ago (with the html codes & css file), but I got lazy to make the splash page so I didn't do it until earlier today =P I'm going to make an anime gallery of my favorite artbooks & series, and also a music page. Hopefully both will be finished by the end of next week *is keeping her fingers crossed*

"bursts out laughing*
Oh God, Alexa XD That email is damn hilarious! *lmao* Leonardo da Vinci is the one from Titanic, right? ^_^;;;

This weekend is homecoming weekend. I and my roomie, Arlene, saw homecoming parade this evening. The street was very crowded and we had to stand for 1 hour and 45 minutes before we got to sit. The parade lasted for 2 hours and 15 minutes, we watched from the start until it was over, then we saw fireworks at HUB (Hetzel student union building) lawn. I love fireworks, but I can't really stand the brightness. I had to close my eyes several times cause it got watery if I glanced too much *_* Then we went to dinner at a Korean restaurant (yook gae jang *yum yum* =9). And here I am now... talking to Brian & Pattie.. and trying to design yet another layout for the gallery & music page.

5:25:00 AM
Look, new layout finally ^_^x This time it's Yui & Nagi from Vampire Princess Miyu. Why gray? Because I had difficulty choosing the right color scheme. The original color has a lot of green & yellow... and yes, I hate green, in case you don't know -_- The combination green & yellow is usually okay, but I couldn't find a good combination, so I just changed everything to grayscale instead. It turned out to be fine, though ^^; Do you know how long I spent in making this layout from scratch until I finished everything (including the html codes & making sure the pages look right)? Wanna guess? *grins* Well, I spent a total of... 9 hours O_O;;;; My fingers are extremely tired right now. And yes, I fail again today for trying to sleep before 5 am (this is supposed to be my new goal =P If you see my older entries, you will notice that most of the time I slept around 5 am). I'd better sleep now.. I'm dead tired and I want to crash on my bed right away. Ja ne...

PS: Alexa, I've sent the link of the scan I mentioned earlier to your ICQ. It's extremely big, though.... almost 1 mb >_<;;; And yes, it's large ^^; Hope you like it..

5:23:00 PM
I felt so tired & sleepy that I ended up skipping 2 of my classes today (I went to the first one and there was a quiz, thank God I went ^^;;;). I've been online in AIM for more than 3 hours waiting for Alexa to come online.... but she is nowhere to be found until now. Yoohoo, Alexa, come online please...
I'm going to work on my blog's layout now. Hopefully I'll issue it tonight... yes, hopefully -_-;;;;
Ohhh, I'm so happy.. I got perfect score for Math matrices midterm exam held yesterday *is dancing in joy* Maybe it was easy, afterall XD Whatever, I still want to dwell on the joy of perfection a little longer *lol* Ah, the feeling of satisfaction.... Oh no, I'm bragging again *hits her head* I will shut my mouth now.

2:37:00 AM
Ne ne, I checked blogger.com for 10 most recently updated blogs, and Sakura's blog was published at exactly the same minute as mine :D Cute coincidental, ne? ^^ By the way, Sakura, you can find the Clamp in Wonderland video from Soyokaze Fansubs. It's listed together with Mahou Tsukai eps.5-6 and On Your Mark. So you have to scroll down to the letter M. Basically the tape includes Mahou Tsukai Tai & On Your Mark, too. Hope that helps.

On another note, I've been wanting for a long time to show what my desktop looks like after the customization.. So I took the screencap and here goes.... *points down*



Yes I know, the quality is very low and it's small O_O;;; But the original file size (on the original desktop size) is incredibly big, I believe people don't want to waste their time waiting for it to finish uploading. So what do you think? Isn't it nice and more organized? I put all the programs on the quick launch bar & dragged it to the right part so it looks like a second taskbar. Therefore, the desktop is clean and I can put all the images I love as I want to without thinking of where to put the icons. I love this poster (which is apparently an older work of Arina Tanemura, thanks for the correction, Alexa ^^ I thought it was strange from the first cause it doesn't look like KKJ ^^;;;) from my dear KKJ artbook to heart *hugs her artbook*. I spent a few hours trying to stitch the scans together (yes I scanned it in 2 parts cause it's big). I never knew stitching can be that hard >_< It wasn't aligned properly, so I had to change the degree until it matched perfectly. Gah -_- But it's worth my time though... I'm very satisfied with the result ^^

2:19:00 AM
It was amusing. Yes it was. Mmmm... maybe not really. But at least I'm very happy. What is? The Japanese skit we did on Tuesday. Mine was plain. We didn't have enough people to begin with. We were supposed to be in a group of 3 and make a 15-lines-per-person drama. Of course, people got creative and did a lot of interesting scenes. I was just with another guy (cause I signed up late and we were left with only the 2 of us), and we only did introduction to each other & describing our apartments. How boring. However, it turned out to be unexpectedly fine. All the other groups had fancy preparations (drew pictures on the board, brought handdrawn sketches of rooms, etc) while doing theirs. These are the 5 criteria of which we were graded: expression (grammar, vocabulary, etc), memorization, preparation, content (originality, script, etc), presentation. Each criteria is worth 2 points, for a total of 10 points altogether. Now, most people with their fancy scripts have one minus: they couldn't memorize their scripts cause it was too complicated for them. Not too mention other factors such as being non Asian (therefore it's hard for them to pronounce the words correctly cause the tongue is different to begin with ^^;;; And yes, that is my advantage of being an Asian, and of course for liking anime so that I'm more familiar with the intonations & pronunciation :D). I've also memorized the scripts half way. Oh, I forgot to mention, the other people can act very well. And it's obvious that I can't act at all. I'm not a good actress, nor does my partner... even he didn't give any expression at all >_< I was afraid as to what score the sensei was going to give us, but I was surprised indeed when I got mine: perfect 10 points for individual score and 9.5 for group score *dances happily* :D You see, in the end, it doesn't need a great script nor fancy things. Taken as a whole, being able to pronounce Japanese correctly (with perfect grammar & vocab, of course) is the most important thing, in my opinion. I'm so happy cause I know most people (with the fancy scripts & all that) got around 7 or 8 cause they didn't memorize the script. My partner also got an 8 cause he didn't memorize it. Funny thing is, I glanced at the scripts a couple of times but apparently the sensei didn't really notice cause I was facing the other way so she was in my back. Heh heh heh *evil laughs* XD
I'm going to join you as late as the end of this week for sure, Vern! O_O;;;; I've finally caught you online today *is happy* Lookie, I have a new name from Vern: Elyse the vampire.. mwahahaha *is trying to scare people away...... and fails quite nicely* ^_^x

-----------» music of the mind : mahou tsukai tai - mata ashita
*is humming along with the soft & calming song*
Mahou Tsukai Tai OAV is so short... 6 episodes only -_-; I like it though, especially the ending song. I hope the TV series will become available soon, at least from the fansubbers.
I've been hearing someone practising guitar that comes from above my apartment unit... For some reason it's nice to hear the sound of guitar, it's calming and keeping me company in the middle of the night ^.~

I love your new layout, Alexa :D You love Pearl Jam too much ^^;; It's very nice and actually Vitalogy is a good title. Your sleeping pattern is very proper it seems, cause I never see you online around 7-8 pm my place (1-2 am your place) anymore. Hopefully I'll be able to see you on weekends, since I have classes at the perfect time to catch you on weekdays ~_~;; You know, Alexa, I know your diaryland link XD I think I've read some of the entries around 8 months ago when I first discovered your petals of clover site =P

I ate Tom Yum Goong for dinner 5 hours ago, but now my stomach is burning because of the hot & spicy soup (yes, I put too much hot oil and limejuice on it >_<). I want to make Tom Ka Gai for next time =9 Have to buy coconut milk before...
Suz, I envy you for being able to see those Japanese drama ~_~ Brian also said To Heart is good. I wish I didn't live in such a small town like this -_-;;;
Look look, I'm early today! ^.~ No more sleeping at 5 am today *laughs* Oyasumi nasai.

4:47:00 AM
*sighs*
Why is it always hard for me to make a new layout? It always takes ages; let me break down and explain the process. First, the searching of a right image. Believe me, it takes me hours -even days- just to find a decent image to edit. If I have found some candidate images, I will spend some more time choosing for which image to use... -_- A lot of factors come to mind: color scheme, mood of the moment, theme (wording, title, -sometimes- song, etc), placement of image on the layout, rough draft of the design, etc. After I've finally chosen an image, the editing begins. Usually it takes a lot of trials & errors (meaning I have to start over again & again cause I'm not satisfied although it's finished ^^;;;), before I can come up with a nice edited image with the layout's done as well. Of course, this editing & design alone take another hours or days -_- Moreover, it's not finished yet, I still have to choose the font, write the html, write content for the updates, fix the links, make the splash page, change the CSS file, fix the contents or add more contents, think of something else to update before issuing the new layout,... the list goes on and on. I'll add more when it comes to mind ^^;; So, given my level of creativity & difficulty to seek for inspiration, it's going to be days or weeks before one decent layout is done. I'm so pathetic, aren't I? ;_; Now I'm thinking of a layout for this blog. I'm still in the first stage: finding a decent image ._. I've been in this stage for 4 hours already. I even scanned some images but I'm not really satisfied. Arghhhhh *is frustrated* O_O

-----------» music of the mind : lea salonga - journey
I've been satisfying my eyes with great fansubs for the last 3 days XD Karekano eps. 10-26 (that sure is a lot ^^) and Kodomo no Omocha eps. 5-9 *yum* I love the storyline of Karekano, the characterization and the plot. However, I feel that the anime has too many unnecessary pictures/scenes (like the road, etc). They took too much amount of time of each single episode that became more annoying the more episodes I watched. When I reached the end of the anime, I was torn: I loved the story so much.. it flows nicely and is very deep in psychological reasonings (I love psychology ^^;;;), but then again I was fed up with the abstract scenes ;_; I believe if they weren't too much of them, the anime would've been better. Who wants to see too much abstract scenes anyway? >_< Maybe it's supposed to be "different" in a way, but it still irks me until now -_- Just not my style of anime presentation, I guess ^^ My style would be something like Card Captor Sakura, which is very rich & full of colors. It gives a sense of "alive" (obviously contains way a LOT of cels in the first place, so that the anime "moves" nicely), nothing cheap & very well done. Kodomo no Omocha is also my style of anime presentation. Karekano is somewhat too still. It doesn't move very well. I hope I'm making sense ._. That's why I hate language barrier *sighs* I wish I could explain better than this >_<

I wonder why I haven't seen anyone lately, although I've been online much more than before... The only people I often see are: Mary, Pattie, Suz, Shampoo, Lanma. I've been talking to Pattie a lot lately. She is such a nice girl, sweet and cheerful ^^ And Mary.. I'm glad I meet Mary... she's such an interesting girl. I can talk about random things with her and have fun ^^
Mmmm... *pouts* I miss talking to these people:
Alexa, you didn't change your screen name, did you? ^^;;; I was on a couple of times but I didn't see you on ._.
Yoshe, sorry I had to go last weekend. My friends didn't want to wait for me, they dragged me home right away and by the time I connected to the net at home, you had gone ;_; And we were such in a nice conversation, above all ._.
Kate, I haven't seen you in ages >_< Where are you, Kate? Lili misses you so much XD *laughs* God, I'm so corny ^_^;;;;
Brian, wherefore art thou, the alcoholic man? XD Maybe we were online on different times.. gomen nasai >_<
Vern, you're always in N/A mode, I feel bad disturbing you ._. I hope I get the chance to talk to you again ^^
Suz, I'm sorry I've been in N/A mode a lot for the last 2 weeks ._.
Felicia, sibuk yah belakangan? ^^ Setiap online di ICQ pasti away ato ga bisa diganggu. Layout kamu yang baru udah jadi? Pengen buru2 liat... ----> yes this is Indonesian ^^;;;
Garion, really, I think I should close my domain for a while or set it on hiatus. This Maison Ikkoku site is taking me ages with my current schedule, I hardly have time to work on weekdays ;_;
Hikaru, poor you for being able to connect to the net on weekends only -_- Hope I can catch you this weekend =)
Last but not the least, Shampoo and Lanma.. I hope to see you guys soon! Hang in there, ne, Shampoo? You'll be fine =) And Lanma, I can't wait to see your new domain with the wonderful flash presentation.
I hope I've mentioned everyone...

I really wish I lived in New York to be able to taste so many wonderful things: namely NY Anime Film Festival, Broadway musicals *drools*, iceskating in front of the Rockefeller Center, dining in fine restaurants, experiencing NY's night life, free internet access without banner.... the list goes on and on.

Toblerone is one of my favourite chocolate *is munching the milk chocolate with a white honey & almond nougat filling* =9 Lindt is also another one of my favourites. I want caviar so bad at this time of the year. I wonder why... last year I also had caviar ^^;; And goose foie gras, too *drools* =9 *nyum*
I also want to shop at A|X. I haven't been shopping at all for the last 6 months -_- I guess I'll shop online :D *is happy of the thought* Uh wait... I'm broke ~_~
Curious of what your name would be in Chinese character? Translate it here ^^
I really should sleep now... I have yet to memorize the 15 lines skit for Japanese class >_< Good night!

"What a journey it has been... and the end is not in sight. But the stars are out tonight, and they're bound to guide my way.
When they're shining on my life, I can see a better day. I won't let the darkness in... What a journey... it has been....."

11:39:00 PM
Happy birthday to my dear bestfriend, Bayu =D

4:05:00 PM
*yawns* Just woke up.. still sleepy... but I have to go very soon. There'll be Permias (Indonesian Students Association) meeting tonight at my friend's place and I have to help her cook. I slept late again last night *morning*, 8 am =P Blame it on the insanity of having nothing to do at midnight and therefore went out for supper at Denny's at almost 2 am XD Blame it again on the nature of guys... playing Madden on playstation for hours while the girls waited for them sleepily on the couch ~_~ I arrived home at 5.30 am, I wasn't really sleepy yet so I cooked myself my little unique receipt for snack (it's hard to explain the receipt) while watching golf channel and talking with Billy on the phone.

I'm still deciding whether to go to Los Angeles for Thanksgiving or not. The airline fare is damn expensive... around $500 -_-
Mary, you're obsessed with Tatsumi :D Tatsumi layout on her blog. Good to hear you're feeling much better now ^^

Alexa, why would you almost feel like a bitch next to me? ^^;;; In my personal opinion, you're very caring and helpful, aside from being enthusiastic, lively, and friendly. On another note, I really want to talk to you ._. But I'm online at the worst time lately (early mornings at your place). I hope I'll see you tomorrow, at least.
I have to go now, I feel bad if I don't help my friend... the meeting will start at 7 pm and she will cook a lot of food so obviously as a friend I should help. Well, see you later!

4:33:00 AM
Like Mary had said: It's Friday the 13th! Nyaaa... *hides for the whole day* Oh wait! I can't >_< I have 2 classes tomorrow and a lot of things to do. Oh well... *puts up her most powerful defence for the whole day*
The last 2 days have been dreadful... 4 exams (2 are midterm exams... which are surely difficult), 1 homework, lack of sleep, emotional burden. Gah.. -_- Thank God it's over and weekend is coming *dances*
I exchanged SMS (messages for cell phone) with Mary through Unimobile, but mine hasn't come yet on her. I wonder what's wrong. I've received hers on mine. I had fun downloading ringtones for my new cell phone through Nokia8260.net and NokiaUSA.net.
I guess I won't be able to update my sites.. not until next week or the week after. I really hate senior year, too many things to do, not enough spare time. Then again, I'm going to graduate in less than a year *is looking forward to be free* :D I'll bear it ^^ I'm going to issue the layout I've made almost 2 weeks ago maybe tomorrow. I'm bored with the Access layout, although I love the blue.

-----------» music of the mind : kris dayanti - yang kumau
I've been listening to this song over and over again for the last 30 minutes ^^;;; It's Indonesian, literary translated as "What I wanted". I love this song, reminds me of someone I wanted to be with but couldn't get together because of the situations *points to someone in Boston* Yeah... him... again. I'm so pathetic *_* No no, I was just thinking because I remember from the song, not that I still dwelt on the past nor on him. See my use of past tense 3 sentences before this? Yeah, I've gotten over him, so it was just a simple thought of remembrance. Is that wrong? ^^;;;

Nya, my weight has decreased again.. it's 46 kg now (101 pounds) ._. I was around 48 to 50 kg during summer (1.5 months here & 2 months in Indonesia) and I felt so healthy! 46 kg is too thin for me -_- Everytime I go back to USA, my weight is always around 45-46 kg. Hopefully when I go back to Indonesia this December, my weight will increase again *is intensely hoping*
Speaking about going back to Indonesia, all flights to Indonesia are full now *is sad* I have to go on waiting list, cause I'm picky. I want to get Singapore Airlines so bad, I hope I get my waiting list confirmed. If not, maybe I'll choose JAL or Northwest. We'll see.

My Glam Name sucks -_- If I don't put my middle name, it's "Irridescent Blowpill". If I put my middle name, it's "Irridescent Mirrorpill". Which one is better? >_<
Oh, I forgot. Welcome home, Billy! *is reading his blog now* Wow, you're so deep... I think that's what makes us "click" when talking ^^ I have been told that I'm deep, complicated and too abstract, so I can't get my thoughts across clearly.
Yeah, I agree with you... there's no place like home. And ironically, my home is in Jakarta, Indonesia. My lovely city where I grew up. Uh, no, I actually have one more place I call "home", which is Semarang, a city where I was born. So the bottom line is, yes, I enjoy USA a lot. I really do. But the feeling is different. I never have the feeling of where I belong here. I feel that although I've lived here for 3 years already, I still don't belong in the US. States for me feels like a place to have fun, not to live my future at. A place to seek for experience, find new friends, broaden my way of thinking, broaden my knowledge, cultures, everything. Basically, a place to live for a short while of my life, but not for a long term. I miss home, I can't wait to graduate, work for 1 year, then go home. Home... is where my heart is. I belong to Jakarta, and I ever will ^^ Although a lot of things are annoying in Indonesia, I still love it for it is my home, where most people I love are.
Oops, I'm rambling.. and it's 4.30 am already! I should go to sleep. Nyanya..

4:03:00 AM
Oh wow *is amazed* I've just been through one hard step of life, making me more mature and strong ^^ Although I was somewhat depressed, it didn't take long for me to get up from the dwelling and move on with an unbelievably strong determination & spirit. When was the last time I felt so full of life? This time, I feel so full of life even more than before. I forgot how good it felt *takes a deep breath* Ahhh, I love my life :D Thank God for such a meaningful experience through the very short holiday, and thank you to everyone who has cared for me... you know who you are *smiles*

*stretches arms* The bad thing is... I didn't accomplish my goals *cries* I didn't work on my site at all, I didn't study, I didn't do my homework until today >_< As always, last day, last minute, last second.. that is me XD
I'd like to apologize to my online friends... because I was rarely there to talk to you guys. Gomen nasai, minna-san *bows bows* Especially to Alexa, Kate, Brian, Shampoo, and Mary (and everyone else I haven't talked to in a while).... I'm so sorry I've disappeared ^^;;;; Now that I'm back to normal again, I sincerely hope I'll see you guys soon.... I really do miss all of you ._.
I haven't been able to mention this before. I simply forgot, I think ^^;; Alexa's new blog layout is playful and evil XD Mary's current blog layout is beautiful and subtle, and Diana's new blog layout is futuristic and pretty in colors.
Mary, congrats for your new phone, which has finally come. I know you couldn't wait for it to come :D And Alexa, quite honestly I like the new layout that you won't use for your Covergirls vs Coverboys page.
Site of the day: 17 Myths of Graphic Design.
*yawns* Bed is calling... farewell for now.. Oyasumi!

7:23:00 PM
October 8, 2000
Happy 25th birthday to my ex-boyfriend. I sincerely wish you the best life could give you... *smiles*

-----------» music of the mind : emiko shiratori - melodies of life
I never knew a short holiday can be this.... amuzing ._. I can't believe that could happen to me... I wonder why? Why should this happen to me? DOUSHITE??? *cries* Ahhh.... ;_;

The only time I went out last weekend was to have dinner, play bowling and billiard on Saturday. That's all. I mostly watched anime fansubs & some movie previews from Starz. I like "For the Love of the Game". Especially because I was curious to see it after reading Jish's entry.
Let's see... I watched Detective Conan movie, You're Under Arrest movie, Karekano eps.9... I don't remember what else. I'm not in the mood to work on my site. I don't feel like studying either. I think I should let today pass by.... I'm just plain tired.. of my feelings ._.

10:32:00 PM
*laughing*
Ne, Billy, you got it all wrong :D I did forgive him... I was just saying that I don't think I'll forget such a precious memory. It's impossible for me to forget.. even you still remember your ex-love, ne? I won't forget, I'll just keep it inside my heart *smiles* I don't blame you for the misinterpretation, though.. It's my fault that I've given such impression in my previous entry. People would interpret it differently ^^;;; Let me explain the situation while I wrote the entry yesterday. I have listened to many stories of my friends and other people I know broke up with their couples. I believe there are more people who broke up rather than became a couple, including my closest friends. Those sad stories lead me to reminiscing my own love experience some time ago... and I started to remember all the feeling I had, how I went through it, etc. Those words in italic below are the expression of my experience. Forgiving has worked for me, and I'd like to share it with everyone... ^^
So if I'm in normal mode (like right now), I don't really care anymore about it XD It has happened a long time ago, I shouldn't waste my time dwelling on it forever, ne? I have to move on and find new experiences of life... Ah, can't wait to once again fall in love... *laughs* XD What am I thinking? ^^;;;;

-----------» music of the mind : card captor sakura - tooi kono machi de (in this distant city)
*singing along*
I love this song :D I'm just done watching Card Captor Sakura movie for the 2nd time with my roomie ^^
Ah, I'm finally free! Yay! XD *jumps up & down* Mmm.. I just remember.. I have to finish 3 business writing papers, study for MIS 432 (System Analysis) test, study for MSIS 450 (Mathematical Programming) test, do Math matrices homework, Japanese homework & tests, finish at least one site for my homepage.... Did I miss anything? -_- This is not going to be a nice holiday, cause in the end I'm not free at all ~_~ Oh well.. I'll start doing that on Monday *grins* I want to have fun until Sunday XD
People aren't here... I'm left with my roomie, her boyfriend and one more guy.. that's all. No one's here, everyone goes out of town, and we're staying in this little town... aren't we pathetic? ^^;;; But at least the town won't be noisy this weekend XD

9:03:00 PM
-----------» music of the mind : sting - windmills of your mind
Konbanwa... I aced the oral Japanese test today :D I was about to feel free at last, but I can't.... Still have one last group meeting tonight at 9.15 pm -_- Mmm... 4 group meetings in 3 consecutive days... Can't believe I can actually be diligent *bursts out laughing* I'm really not looking forward to the last one >_< But I do look forward to getting over it quickly. This is the last work for this week... after that I'm free.... at last! *sobs* And I'm going to have 2 days *gack* holiday (not including weekend, of course). Yeah pity me.... semester break, but only 2 days ~_~

-----------» music of the mind : diana krall - why should i care
I'm in the mood for sad songs, but this is too depressing ._. Mmm... I remember my golden book of memories now... It was hard indeed to forget and forgive. It's somehow still hard until this point. I'm not making any sense, aren't I? I'm reminiscing the time when I was deeply hurt.. and of course it involved the ultimate word: "love" >_< If I take some time now and really think about it, I often ask myself: "Did I forgive and forget? Have I done that and accepted it as my past?" The answer is "yes, I do". It's true. I did forgive, I did try to forget & accept it as my past.... To which extent? I'm not sure. 100%? I don't think so. I still feel something missing from my heart, and yet it has been more than 1.5 years. Why does it take so long? Because I haven't found a new love in my life. If I have found a new love, will I forget it? mm......... *shakes head* I don't think I'll ever forget, but I can close the book, the golden book of memory. And one day, if I decide to open it again, I would smile upon the reminiscence... I would smile because something good has happened once in my life, such a precious book, such a precious memory. But when will that happen? When will I accept it as my past? Ah... I wish life had all the answers. Yes yes, just like the song... "There's always one who turns and walks away.... And one who just wants to stay... And who said love is always fair? Why should I care...."

To forgive is to accept the situation, accept in the sense of not blaming anyone... It has happened, I can't change anything now.. I've tried the slightest possibility to change the situation, but I couldn't.. So I try to forgive and forget...
To forgive also means forgiving everyone involved in the situation.. I forgive myself for everything I did that hurt the others, I forgive the others for hurting my heart... Therefore, in the end, I won't feel guilty, I won't hate anyone, and most importantly, my wounded heart can accept the situation, and I can let it go..as my past.
Forgiving is a process.... that might take a very long time, even years. It doesn't happen in a turn of a hand. But afterwards..... yes, afterwards, my wounded heart will heal, time will help, but forgiving is the key. Time alone can't do.. because feeling doesn't recognize time. I'm hurt, if I don't accept that I'm hurt, I will be hurt.. forever.
By accepting it as my past, I then will be able to close my precious book of memory... deep in my heart. If one day I decide to open it, I will smile upon the reminiscence.... because I have a wonderful memory, indeed.

-----------» music of the mind : elvis costello & burt bacharach - i'll never fall in love again
Mmmmm... what a nice and perfect song to end the rant XD Waahhh... I'm laaaaate! ._.

1:09:00 AM
I have developed a new habit. Now everytime I eat, I always watch an anime to go with it. My old habit that I've had for a very long time is reading a book while eating. I have to have something to read while eating (if I'm eating by myself, of course). Now reading is replaced with watching a fansub anime ^^ I notice that since last week, I think. I don't quite remember, but I know I've developed this habit from when I've started watching my fansubs again almost regularly. Anyhow, I watched Garasu no Kamen eps 5-8 last night, and eps 9-12 when I had early dinner this evening. I wanted to watch Detective Conan, but I'm too tired now ._. I'm really busy today, and my exam failed successfully -_- I had two group meetings until 11 pm and my dear roommate and her boyfriend bought fried chicken for dinner =9 Good thing they haven't eaten yet when I went home, so we had a feast together. I received Ribon and Asuka today :D Yes, I've finally been able to subscribe to Asuka.. I'm so happy *sings* But I've been yawning for the past 15 minutes, so I'd better rest...

11:33:00 PM
Ah, what a weekend X_X The only time I went out the past weekend was to have dinner with my roommate and other friend in a Korean restaurant =9 It's one of the very few good restaurants in State College due to the small size of the town >_< Other than that, I didn't go out at all neither Saturday nor Sunday. I was struck down with flu so I kind of had a slight fever... but good thing is, I'm fine now :D I'm recovering and I hope sincerely that I don't get *any more* (yes, that's an emphasize) illnesses *_*
Let's see... what did I do on Saturday? Hmmm... *thinking* oh, right! I finished my new layout :D I'm not going to upload it now though. I want to update a couple of things on my abandoned site before I upload the new layout. It shouldn't be later than the end of this week *hopefully* On Sunday, I was more unproductive ^^;;; It was a very nice day, though. I talked with Alexa from 2.42 pm to 8.50 pm *lol* That was 6 hours and 8 minutes =D And I wasn't doing anything else while we were chatting. We kept messaging each other continuously almost without stopping. I believe that is my longest chatting record ever *laughs* I remember I once talked to someone for around 6 hours long time ago, but that was on ICQ message so I was doing other things while chatting. This time, I didn't do anything! I can't believe I could do that ^^;;; But yes, a very nice conversation indeed. So many things happened, you wouldn't believe it. It's amazing how we found all those topics *lol* Ne, Alexa, I still have some questions for you *acts as if yesterday's chat wasn't long enough* :D I'll ask you the next time we talk ^^
Later that night, I decided to watch some fansubs. I watched Garasu no Kamen (Glass Mask) eps. 1-4. My friend came by when I was watching the 3rd episode, so he joined me. I like the manga much much better than the anime, especially since the animation drawing isn't very well made. It seems very old and I don't like how skinny the people are. The male character that I happen to like, named Masumi Hayami, is totally ugly in the anime -_- He's supposed to be handsome and has all the women drool for him in the manga ^.~ Secondly, the story is much longer in the manga. I believe the anime version covers about one-fourth of the actual storyline. Well anyhow, I suppose my friend was bored with that kind of anime (he's a guy after all), so I switched to watching Detective Conan eps. 1-4 right after that. The animation is okay, not very good but still okay (much better than Garasu no Kamen obviously) and the storyline is somewhat complete, although the manga is still the best. For some reasons I still like manga more than anime.
This is amusing *laughing* I believe many people have known the site already, but I can't help to share it again ^.~
On another note, I finally talked to Mary a bit today ^^ Of course, the major topic is our all-time favourite play: The Phantom of the Opera, which Alexa hates so much :D I really have to get to work on my Phantom site O_O Hopefully it will be finished before next year ^^;;

My new cellular phone has finally come today :D Actually I missed the delivery so I had to pick it up all the way to FedEx, which is near the airport (about 15 minutes by car). My roommate nicely gave me a ride... which I eventually felt bad because her car is parked quite far from our apartment and she seemed sleepy due to lack of sleep and wanted to take a nap. But she insisted it was okay with her so I had to make sure several times that she did mean that. You see, she's a very nice person and always helpful, but she rarely says "no", so I don't want her to feel forced deep down. She's not the type who can openly say her true feeling so I always have to make sure all the time. Back to my cell phone. I'm so happy *dances* =D I got the Nokia 8260 for only $99 from 1-800-mobiles. That's the best deal I've ever found! The regular market price for the phone is I believe $250, therefore I got such a nice bargain ^^ Moreover, I purchased the phone before Sept 30, so I get another $50 rebate from AT&T *jumps in happiness* That makes the overall price for the phone $50 =D Of course, without the plan rate. I choose AT&T Digital One Rate for $59.99 per month and I get 450 free minutes. Not bad, ne? ^^
I guess it's time to go back to work now... I have an exam tomorrow and I haven't read anything yet X_X I procrastinate too much lately *sighs* And this Math matrices homework is due tomorrow, too >_< I'm running ouf ot time now so I'd better go!