6:43:00 PM
Writing from work...

Yes, I've started work since last Monday. It's a full-time temporary work: M - F from 8 to 5 until Dec 21 (3 weeks). The company is Kinder Morgan Energy Partners located in Orange, CA. The job duty? Just one word: boring -_- But at least the pay is enough to spend on manga, artbooks, and a digital camera. Consider them as my Christmas gifts.

Leon has gone...

And I still can't believe it ;_; As much as I hadn't met him in the past year, I still missed him. After all, I used to sleep over at Diana's place when I went back to Indonesia last year. And I used to go out with the members of my second family a lot (mostly with my mom, my second mom, Alex, Diana, Leon, and Frans). And eventhough Leon was only 2 years old when he died, he was a special child. Everyone loved him. And so did I.

Maybe it was better for him... Only God knows...

Blue Christmas...

Or maybe grey? Just like how the color theme of this layout reflects my feelings and my heart...
Alex (Diana's older brother -- better known as Ontan to family and close friends) is, obviously, not coming here this Christmas. He planned to spend Christmas holiday in California, and I thought I could spend my Christmas with him and his friend... and it was supposed to be merry... But his visa can't be issued before Dec 30 -_- And with what happened to Leon, he wants to make Diana happy as much as he can. They will go to places. They will all be together with their friends and family. And I'm left here alone.. don't know what to do on Christmas and don't know who to spend Christmas with...

This is my very first Christmas without my family and the people I love...