1:16:00 PM
Indonesia : Jan 9th @ 1.16 AM
My classes schedule is messed up *sobs* I have been calling USA to take care of them, but I will have to take the classes on summer instead -_- I'm going to take this webdesign course and this visual images course for my elective requirements. It's going to be an easy A =D The most wonderful part is: there won't be any meetings, everything (syllabus, assignments) is done via the class website. Wonderful, isn't it? ^^ So out of 7 classes this semester, I only have to meet for the 5 classes. And now I have to search for a science class -_- I hate science class so much.. I still have 1 more that's required to take *gah*

Yesterday I met my ex-boyfriend's junior high school friends for dinner. He has 2 different kind of friends: old friends from his junior high school (most of them went to Indonesian universities) and his college friends from USA (mostly studied in Boston). I hadn't met his old friends at all, except for his bestfriend (who is none other than my friend's cousin *getting confused? =P*). They were curious to see me, so they asked me to meet them. Well, it was alright... but during the time I was there, my mind was sort of wandering elsewhere. So quite often my face went blank and one of the girls asked me if I had a problem. Hell no, I didn't think of anything at all. But it has always been the case with me: my emotion and thought are always shown very clearly on my face. One can guess quite easily as to what my feeling is at the moment. The girl asked several times, to my surprise, because I really didn't think of anything particular nor did I have any problem at all.

On my way back home, I thought about it... Why my mind went blank like that, as if an important problem occupied my mind. At last I knew the answer: I still haven't finished forgiving my ex-boyfriend.. *sighs* I'm bored already of that thought, really. But I need to get it off my mind very soon. I admit I'm still not over him 100% yet. It has been... what, 2 years already? -_- Guess I have to continue forgiving him each and everyday. Perhaps yesterday was a test, to see whether I could face his close friends without thinking about him. And I understand now.. even though I'm separated with him, I haven't seen him since June 2000, and we rarely contact each other anymore, the memories are still there and I still haven't gone through the forgiveness. See how long it takes to forgive one sole human (or one sole love, to be exact)? ._. I'm getting tired already... I want a new love! :_:

There.. *sighs* Another depressed entry of mine. But hey, I haven't had a depressed entry for a long time, ne? ^_~ Time for one now *laughs*

So, Alexa? Has the package come yet? :_: I feel sure this time that the post office must have lost it -_- I have to claim it as soon as I'm back next week.

Mary, are you back yet? Okaeri nasai! Hope to see you soon ^^
My condolences for your parent's godmother, Flipper. Speaking about funeral, I can't see myself crying in a funeral.. I think I haven't cried at any funerals (including my grandpa from dad's side). So far the people who passed away weren't close to me, so that might explains the reason why I couldn't cry. Aside from the fact that I'm somewhat "cold", not being able to express my emotions in front of people (except for getting angry and bad mood *laughs*). Eh, in any case, I -don't- want to attend any funerals in the near future ._.