12:59:00 AM
-----------» music of the mind : dave grusin - on golden pond
I've lost 4 of my favourite CDs. I lent them to my ex-boyfriend & suddenly they were nowhere to be found. He's tried looking for them for almost a year now (not trying hard, I would say -_-) and I really miss the songs by now so I'm downloading every songs from the 3 smooth jazz instrumental CDs. The other one is an anime CD and it's not as important as the other 3: David Benoit (best collection), Dave Grusin (best collection) and Very Best of Smooth Jazz Guitar. And yes, although these songs always remind me of either Boston or DC (where my ex-boyfriend was ._.), I always love them to heart. In fact, I called him today & let him know that I was listening to these songs & how it reminded me of him. Well, we're still good friends.. and yes, sometimes I miss him. It's perfectly human of me to still miss him, ne? Talking to him doesn't really satisfy my heart though... it 's more like I miss our times together.. which of course can't be brought back ._. Ah, the hardest thing in life (maybe not ^^;) is to keep a memory still a memory, nothing more. Because it won't come back. I'm still thinking how I can get through it...

-----------» music of the mind : dave grusin - river song
On to a more cheerful note *hums along with the song*
I'm going home.... in two months & a half :D I can't wait! This is going to be my last chance of going back to Indonesia. I won't be able to do it again at least in the next 2 years cause I'm graduating & moving to California afterwards. It's kind of complicated to explain, but international students can't go in & out of USA as easily. We need either an I-20 (to get the visa) or H-1 (a working visa that's sponsored by the company). I will be able to stay in the USA for a year without neither of them using an OPT (Optional Practical Training), but I can't go out of USA at all during the year. If I go out, I can't come back again *_* Well, my parents are coming August next year for my graduation so I won't be as lonely, but I can't see other people I want to meet in Indonesia.

-----------» music of the mind : dave grusin - st. elsewhere
I'm in the mood for happy smooth jazz songs :D
04 is a wonderful place. I find a lot of great bitmap fonts there. I fell in love with the font for the menu of Thalia's blog, so I emailed her and she told me that site.

Anyhow, as a follow up of the fight between my friends (a guy & a girl who shall remain nameless) last Friday, my roomie has been terrored by the girl (who is rather close to her because the girl who got in the fight is my roomie's boyfriend's older sister) since yesterday. I feel really bad for my roomie to have been dragged this far.... all because of that stupid fight which wasn't even her fault. Gah -_- And my roomie is the nice & kind type, she can control her emotion very well. If I were her, I would've ignored the girl & thrown the so-called friendship away. What kind of friendship is that, to begin with? The girl kept asking & asking "Why didn't you stand up for me while we fought & tell the guy that he was wrong & back me up? What does the friendship we've had mean to you?"
To start with, that fight was awful & I was afraid they would've hit each other (and a girl is still a girl no matter how dare she might be) so I & my roomie tried to separate them away. How could we think of something to say other than "Oh, please stop! Come on, don't fight. Come here, please" to the guy especially (since he was the one who started the fight) and tried to drag the guy away from the girl? I did that many times, and each time the guy slapped my hand away. How could I think of anything else to do? It was a fight, not an argument. We couldn't think of anything other than trying to stop it cause we were afraid ourselves. I don't understand those people.

Now about the so-called friendship the girl was always imposing on my roomie. What kind of friend is she calling my roomie a "bitch" behind her back & didn't say sorry, instead explaining to her why she called her a bitch that time. What the hell?? *rolls eyes* For your information, this girl is disliked by the entire Indonesian students in my uni due to her complicated & bad manners. So it was just a pressure for us to act nice to her. Most of the time, I don't take her too seriously, I just ignore her altogether. For some reasons, she's rather afraid of me (maybe because I never listen to her rambles and I always seem don't care) that she never gets angry at me and rarely argues with me. Well, good. Don't bother me and leave me alone O_O
Mmmh, I should stop now. I still have a homework to do for tomorrow *sighs*